That day
Last December, rather, two Decembers ago now
Or maybe last January
Or February
That day

That day
When I knelt down
Tears falling
When I played that same song
Over and over and over
Tears falling

When I prayed
Without even knowing I had
Tears falling

When I knew that I couldn’t do
What I was doing anymore
Tears falling

I asked for help
I asked for connection
I asked for love

I said I don’t want to do this anymore
I didn’t want to die
But part of me did
That day

That day
I am grateful for that day

That day
That winter day
During one of those dark months
I can’t remember now
That day

That day
So grateful for that breaking point
When I could be reborn
Both into and out of
myself
That day