Fog pauses: a journey to the heart and back

Fog pauses
At the waters surface
Partially obscuring Life

Standing Alone
Perched
High above
I watch as it begins to Lift itself

Gently
Slowly
Steadily

I sense the light of the sun
Warming my cheek

A cool breeze comes
My mind drifts
I wonder if it’s pausing there
The fog
Waiting
For the world to finally wake up
To be ready for the Truth
About to be unveiled

Looking up
3 eagles
Circle silently
Above

But the fog is a Siren
Inescapably calling to me
Singing its sweet song

I find myself wrapped in it
No longer seeing beyond my own hand

I cling to my limits of separation
Hearing only my own voice
Feeling only my own body
Remembering only my human life

There is a false sense of comfort
Cocooned there
Until the darkness and fear
Creep back into my mind

The fog shifts then
Suddenly becoming more dense
A heavy, suffocating blanket
As I realize
That I can’t see anything other than myself
And I can’t breathe

An eagle above
Screams a warning

I return to myself
Air filling my lungs effortlessly

Relieved
I remember
Where I am standing
On my own two legs
High Above
With the sun resting gently on my cheek

I look out ahead
Finding steadiness in the snow capped mountains
Sensing limitlessness
In the expanse of the horizon

A bee buzzes on a blossom nearby
The sound amplifing in my ear
Signaling a wordless message

Looking down again at the fog
Far below me
At the waters surface
I am afraid

Paralyzed with fear

But just for a moment

Before I remember
I can choose again

To trust
A familiar Voice
That doesn’t feel
Quite like my own
Yet

I release myself

Jumping

Diving headfirst into the wind
Free falling off the cliff above
I leave my human body behind

I find my snowy, white wings
Suspended, mid air
Weightless above the fog
Untethered
I take in a new view of the world
Ready to explore the endless sky

An eagle screams
With a message
Go deeper
Dive deeper

I change course
Plunging
Into the frigid,
Refreshing,
Sanctifying
Water

Holding my breath
I am submerged
I feel my long, black, undulating body
Sliding effortlessly between each molecule
Sensing the swirling currents
Dancing in joy all around me

I propel myself downward
Again weightless
My strength building

A flash of light
Appears in the darkness
Catching my attention

It illuminates the ocean floor
Just long enough
For me to glimpse a rift below

Slipping through it
Into the molten lava
I am Shapeless

I feel the heat
From deep inside
The Core of the earth

The liquid fire surrounds me
Burning me away

Who I thought I was
My stories
My fear

Until my heart
Is the only thing left
Red, pulsing
Raw

Engulfed in flames
It Cracks Open
Wide

Its beat changes rhythm then
Becoming a drum
Summoning me back

Back
Out of the fire

Back
Gliding through water

Back
Suspended in air

Back
Standing on the solid earth

Dazed now
I discover my feet bare
My toes wet with dew from the blades of grass beneath them

Tired, I sit down on a rock
At the top of the cliff

Watching the fog below
Nearly gone

Sitting there
The breeze comes
I close my eyes

I See my heart
No longer inside my chest
But alive there in my hands
Stretched out before me
Reaching towards the horizon

With each beat
It calls the suffering of the world
Into itself
While the light of Spirit
Free now to enter through the crack
Transmutes all of our pain
Into Love

Pure, Endless Love
Pulsing back out into the world
Into all of us
Together as One

We are Whole
We are Healed
Instantly

The eagle screams
I open my eyes
Marveling again at the magnificence of the fog
At the wisdom found in Nature
Waiting for us to listen
To hear the Voice of Spirit
Our Voice

To dive head first into your fear
To take the journey

Trusting that you are being lead
In every moment

Allowing the bigger picture
The whole picture
To be revealed
At the end of it all
Where it all began

But only when you are ready

To let your self burn away

To let your Heart crack open

To realize the purpose of your life

The Truth
The Wholeness
The Love
Is there waiting

Patiently
Eagerly

For each of us

To choose once again

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